France Recap Part Three

Hey all of you beautiful, caring and just awesome readers!!!

First I NEED and want to say thank you to all the commenters!!
Trust me, if I say that you keep me sane on most days, that’s no exaggeration!!

To be quite honest, I’m feeling really down lately….!
Don’t know exactely why… Just blah! Of course I have some ideas what could cause this but… I don’t want to get into it! I need to just concentrate on the future, on positive stuff, on people who care and it will all be ok!
Although I think this might be a big part of it.
Me always kind of pretending that I’m OK, that everything is fine and nothing is bothering me!
My T kindly referred to me as some kind of ‘Dr. Jackel and Ms. Hide’… Not so wrong if you ask me!
But… As I said, don’t want to get into it here!
You all have enough to deal with and I am so proud of all of you about how you do it!!

On to the good stuff!! 😀

But as the title says here I have FINALLY the last but definitely no least part of my recap!
The house and everything around it!!
Even though I’m not a big fan of France – the people, the language, I fell totally in love with the house and especially the silence of the place.
I would love to spend time with each and every one of you there!!! You all are very welcome ther, in case you’re in ‘the neighborhood’ sometime! Just so you know!

I’m not going to write much… Just let the pics speak for themselves!

























this is the same one as above… just one day later!




Again…. Thank you VERY VERY MUCH for each word you write to me!!
It remindes me to stay strong and just go on!!

And (even if they’ll never read this) I want to thank my two amazing bosses
who would just do almost anything for me
(and of course I have always the feeling to not be as grateful as I should be!)
and two ‘kind-of’ co-workers (or I’d like to say they’re FRIENDS!)
BEAT (my ‘secret love’…) and ELLI
they just keep me sane around here…
Always try to lift my spirits when they feel like something’s wrong,
without forcing me to speak about it!

Have a wonderful day everyone and as I always say
and will try myself today
MAKE IT A GOOD ONE!!

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‘Working’ in France

Here I am with my first (of two?!) part of the ‘Holiday-Series’ 😀

I don’t know if I mentioned that we not only have a house in France (two hours south of Paris)
but it stands on a huuuuuuge property (don’t know if there is another word for it!)
so there is always lots to do!

First there are all the fruit (and nut) trees!
A few month ago my mom went there with a few friends to pick
the best Boscop Apples and awesome Pears.
But right now it’s Quince-Time!

And we have a beautiful Quince-Tree




What you can see here is only what’s left on the tree but the ground was covered with good and not so good fallen Quinces. So we sorted through them, cleaned the ground unterneath and picked or shook down the Quinces from the tree! It was really fun! I even had to climb up once to pick some that where hard to reach.

Look at one of our baskets full of beautiful Quince


with their funny furry skin! 😀


And what else did we do than cook them (only a small part of our harvest)

jam, marmalade, compote

this actually is all we did (there are some apple and pear compotes too)
and we could have done much more! this is only one and a half day of work!!


And THIS is what we took home!!!! The whole car smelled like one huuuuuge Quince!
I love the smell but after driving seven hours it gets kind of annoying!!
But of course we survived!! 😀



Next up: Leaves.
I had a lot of fun doing some yard work
[and had to think of Ang and Kath while doing it! 😉 ]


Lots and lots of loose leaves to take care of!


Smile for the camera!! 🙂


And this is how it looked hours later.



The next day I only needed to pick them all up and bring them all the way to the back of the next pic where we have our compost (sp?).


As I said it was lots of work, but I enjoyed every second!
I think it’s so much nicer to do things when you don’t ‘have to’!
I could start and stop whenever I wanted and how long I fancied!

Stay tuned for the next installment! 😀
Don’t know if it will be FOOD or FALL Impressions!
We will see….. 😀

Have a wonderful day everyone!

Lots of LOVE!!

Weekly Update and Holidays

Hey my lovely pumpkins!!

Sooooo sorry for being MIA lately!! I’m a really bad blogger lately!
But as I mentioned in my last post, I really do eat almost the same everyday and
nothing interesting is happening around here, so…. Little reason to post…
And since I’m a little lost for words lately – doesn’t help much!

I just wanted to let you all know that I’m (semi) OK and even though I’m eating too little
(and the damn scale is not bulging!! How can this be?!!!)
I eat enough for the moment! Even my T said so!
So everything is fine!

Ballet and Jazz is going great!! I feel like I am making so much progress!
Giving up a little controll to maintain the “lightness” of ballet and to let my moves be smoother in Jazz!
I just loooooooooove my teacher so much!! Can’t even put this into words!
I’m so happy to have found her! I’m certain that I would not be dancing if it weren’t for her!

Hope all of you had a good week?!
I know E and M are doing much better!! And I’m so proud of them!
Karina is putting a smile on my face with each post
and Rebecca (found her blog recently) is inspiring me so much to question and reevaluate!
Thank you soo much for all your posts!! For sharing your story!! It really makes me stronger
and feeling less alone in all of this!!


I don’t know if I mentioned this in an earlier post
but I’m away the next week!
We are going to spend a week in our house in France! YAY!!
We have to pick our Quinces before they go mad!
I love to spend time there! It is so quiet and calm!
And I have a huge room for myself to practice ballet and jazz!! YAY!!
I’m going with my mom and a friend of hers! It will be fun!

So no updates [as if that is new 😉 ] until next monday!
Have a wonderful week and I look forward in reading all your lovely posts when I return!
I have to say that is the only thing I’m not so happy about…
Not being able to read all your posts for so long!! But I’ll manage!! 😛

Here are a few recent eats, so that this isn’t a text-only post and to give you a little color!! 😀

Jenn inspired me (with her latest post) to this lovely dinner on Tuesday!!

pre-workout snack (wednesday if I remember correctly)



pm-snack/pre-workout – half at work

the other half on my walk to practice
And a little more fall colors 😉

even though it was wet

it looked really beautiful – no sound when walking trough the leaves though 😦

EDIT: After posting this, I read the ever amazing Karina‘s new post and discovered that I was taged to contribute to Maggie’s Truth Week, which I find is an awesome thing!!

So about my bit of Truth (where should I start?!):

I grew up learning to put everyone else before me!
My dad committed suicide when I was merely at the age of 7,
thus I always thought that I needed to help my mom and not burden her with anything else
and this started a cycle I have jet to come out of!
I don’t blame her entirely for this even though she might have given me the urge to do this undeliberately.
[I have no idea if this mad sense at all, sorry for that!]
I am learning to put myself first but it’s not an easy task.

I’m tagging E and M today [I don’t remember if they posted one already and sorry if so. But as far as I know every day there is a new reason to post one ;)]
And to end this the right way, please take a look at the OCCK-post! Thank you for reading! 😉


All my love to all of you!!! :*

(Not so) Quick Update ;)

I just want to let all of you beautifuls know that my appointment went very well!!

I’m so glad I did this!! Couldn’t have done it withough all of you and my best friend!!

Thank you so much for supporting me in this and even pushing me to do so!! And of course thanks for sharing your stories!! This made it so much easier, to know I have a bunch of people believing in me – that I’m doing the right thing!!


I totally lucked out with this T! She is truly amazing – we clicked instantly! It was so relieving to talk to someone without being lookt at like a lunatic or like they think “just stop! just like yourself”!! To talk to her and see in her eyes that she knows and understands what I was telling her!! We made a new appointment and I’ll start single therapy with her and she strongly suggested a Nutritionis for me, but we will discuss this next time! Until then I have a little questionnaire to fill out and start with a food diary!

I’m not too happy with the diary part, because right know I definitely don’t eat enough (sorry for mentioning this and sorry if this is triggering!!) and I’m not sure if I just give it to her like it is, or if I’ll tweak it a little! But I don’t want to start our “thing” with lies!! The first time I don’t have to lie about food, how it makes me feel, my weight and how gaining all this weight back is super upsetting for me!! So we’ll see! I still have time to think about it – no appointment until (a day after my birthday!!) the 9th.


Alright! Enough doctor-talk! 😉 Onto the good stuff!!


Even though I didn’t eat to much the last few days, I definitely had some deliciouse things!!

Tuesday was veeeeeeeeeery bad!!! Had quite the binge!! And I finally swore that this was THE LAST EVER!!!

I just can’t do this anymore!!!

But to start at the beginning – day went well, as always. Did not go to Yoga because my mom had other obligations and I planned to go and donate blood for a few weeks and since Tuesday is the only day I can go I thought I took the plunge. Walked there in the beautiful fall weather!!

Everything went fine even though my blood pressure was a little low (99/64) as always!

breakfast: half a cup muesli, an apple, a kiwi and lots of cinnamon and flax
lunch: lots of veggies (orange bell pepper, zucchini, cauliflower, cherry tomatoes)
with 1/3 cup cottage cheese and paprika
dessert a little later: granola bar with orange dark chocolate
pre-donation: a sliced apple, babybel and curry cashews
the beautiful cemetery I walked through!
a little halloween feeling 😉
it was such a nice fall afternoon – the pic doesn’t do it justice!
dinner (I was given after donating): ww kind-of-bagle with a little cream cheese and pate, orange juice on the side
didn’t eat the toblerone – took it with me though!
proof 😉
thank god everything goes smoothly every time!! I like the thought of helping someone with my blood!! 😀
and like I said! everything went downhill – once again but this time was THE LAST TIME!!!
this is about 1/5 of what I ate (not everything sweet and nut just this times five!!)


Wednesday was alright!! Day was kind of slow and I was glad once the clock turned 4.30pm so I could go to the post office to finally receive my English Certificate!! YAY! And then head to my ballet and jazz practice!! Went really well! My teacher checked my point shoes and told me that I could practice in them for a while, but they are a little to soft for me (they are second-hand) and I’ll have to buy my own soon – which is totally ok for me!! Can’t wait until Monday to start practice at class with them!!

breakfast; 1/3 cup muesli, half an apple, half a kiwi and 1/3 of a small banana
with lots of cinnamon and flax – some magnesium/calcium tablets
small portion of my quinoa and veggies
about 1/3 cup quinoa tops, orange pepper, zucchini, cauliflower and cherry tomatoes
1/3 cup cottage cheese, paprika and topped with a little seed mix
pre-workout/dinner: half of this peanut&oat TREK bar – totally delicious!!!!
and a babybel – had one cup skim milk after dance (unpictured)


Thursday was interesting to say the least! More on the go than in the office. 🙂

My T-app. at 8am – back in the office at 9.30am, worked straight though until 3pm when I had to leave to drive 1,5h to pick up my nieces (they had some kind of pre-evaluation for their jobs), drive back and drop them at the barne they work! Not to much traffic thank god but still very busy and tiring! Finally home at 9pm!

breakfast (part1) at 8am before my appointment
awesome stats!! It was interesting!
Since I’m still not used to the ginger taste in something sweet, the first bite was kind of not so good,
but the longer I chewed and ate – the better it got! 😀
breakfast (part2) at 11am was the same as on wednesday
here pre mixing
here post-mixing so you can see what I had in there! 😉
late lunch at 2.30pm was a delicious quick soup (veggy and potato/leek)
on top of my work 😉
I drove into the sunset!! beautiful colors!!
on the road I hade some (unpictured) crackers and the other half of the TRAK peanut&oat bar

So yeah!! This is it!! My Not-So-Quick update!! Hadn’t planned to write so much (like usual) so I just changed my title a little!! 😉


Hope all of you had a (better) good time and why don’t you tell me about your favorite day so far this week?! When and why?! 😉


Have a wonderful day everyone!!


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